MEMORY~

memory.

ari ny da 28 julai...sedang maseh dalam bulan puasa.

n tibe2 mcm biasa fikiran melayang jauh.

pergi backspace bleq zaman2 skola menengah.

trlampau bnyak kenangan.memori.memory.

ntah la.definisi memori 2 sndiri.

something yg leyh wat mulut jd bentuk melengkung mangkuk luas2.

n sometime bnde yg buat mata stuck kt stu arah tnpa ade ape2 cr0ss over our mind.

or maybe something that make sense until it make us wanna cry all out.

kan?...payah kn nk bg trjemahan versi penuh complete psl feeling?

tp yg amat pasti...memory skolah menengah..

aq xkn penah lupe..tipu lau kte secondary school didn't make sense..

it give...full of...ntah la...ta reti nak ckp..nk tulis..

hermmm.............

teringat segalanya...aq tanak ilang ingatan ini...kerana ia trlalu bahagia..

time ny..da abeh spm..da dpt result..

ika tade...sbb kt ganu..xleyh bleq klntan..bila lg ye aq nk g jmpe korg lg?

seme da besa..da move on  mncari definisi life..

muke seme hepi...sbb x merasa lg utk survive hidup sorg2 kt dunia lua..

maseh brfikir ikut neraca surrounding..brckp ntah hape2..

sembang segala mcm..dr prkara yg sepatutnya x penting lasum smpai kpd soal hati dn perasan yg sgt sukar utk cari makna disebalik...baring ats rooftop mlm2 lau kt bilik pns sgt sml tgk bintang..

jln2 around kb tanpa rasa brsalah wt bising..bljr same2..main same2..

n sekarang ktew seme da mmbesa...n not do it altogether..

tp aq tau...korg pndai jage diri..jage iman..jage hati..jage prckpn..

ramadhan kareem da smpai...dulu2 kte sahur smbl bace buku...ingt x tyme sejarah?

smgt betul bace hafal all bout tanah melayu...smpai x tidow..

n abeh je pekse..kebetulan blok x brkunci...ape lg...seme da trbonkang...

tido x ingt dunia...pndai sgt kn x tidow gara2 nk bce sejarah je mlm uh...

tp.....pngalaman yg......best!

herm...nk list seme mmg x abeh la kn...

tp yg diyah pesan kt aq..yg ika pesan..yg syida pesan...yg korang2 seme pesan..

'tayah da la gdoh2 ng laki'

ngeh~ntah la..its hard..donno why...

pengalamn lalu maseh bg kesan,mungkin?

ntah..aq tade jwpn...betul...herm...kdg2 ase diri ny teruk amat..

tatau..tatau...teruk kan seorg siti maryam...

saye sedih bile tringt mnde2 yg mcm uh...yg ase mcm ....arghhh...i donno how..

donno why...mcm mne ye?...nk tulis un x reti...ape lg nk express feeling uh ng riak muka..

toneless..speechless..

ha.ha.ha.

mode sedih...senget lar...

CINTA NUR ISLAM.aq sayang korang.aq tanak hilang korang.

gmba ika tade kt atas..so,tyme ny tgh berangan kn?..lam bilik..hewhew..

husna yg di tgh2...kami..maseh dlm pakaian sekolah...kain purple...

lawa kn?

pahit e2 manis.

hai..sawadikap..pe kab0r?..kabare?..h0w r u?

fine!..insyaAllah...kn?...maseh waras..huu...
emm...actually..wanna say dat n0t everything that we feel it is wr0ng,not go0d enough,not suitable is s0mething that absolutely can't be accepted..in life..in 0ur circle life..d0n't think 'bout other too much b4 we reach 0ur limit..thinking about other will make we fell depressed,tensi0n etc..rite?
s0metime~or c0uld i say it always happen?~what we don't want...always..it is what we need,what we will achieve...n selalunya kte as human being will feel like *ohh~xde la susa sgt bnde nym* ble kte da go through bnde 2..kan?...maka tak perlu la kan kte nak trlampau ase nk nanges or what so ever ble satu2 bnde 2 dtg dlm bntuk ribut taufan ke angin sep0i2 bahasa ke 0mbak tsunami ke...janji kte tau n pegang ngn janji Allah bahawasanya Dia tak kan uji hambanya apa yang hambanya x mampu........

hurm~...maka cabaran dalam hid0p e2 bnde bese...senang citer kan kte fikir je...agak2 lau Allah bagi ujian ny kt 0rang laen,di0rg leyh go through x?..dgn sgt baik,sabar mcm kte?.....lps 2 msti kte akn ase brsyukur amat sgt sbb maseh ad rupanya sisa2 kesabaran untuk kte go thr0ugh something 2 lar...

try la fikir cm2..insyaAllah kte tak merungut kuat sgt...i am tryng it actually...x salah kan kte brk0ngsi n cuba amalkan sama2 bnde2 baik camni...
n sememangnya skrg ny tgh 0tw siapkan assignment quran hadis..segala kelengkapan bagai da cukup..just tnggl nk taip je...npak cam senang tp ble da stat...ase cm *ya Allah....npe la bnde alah ny x siap2?*...pdhl kene anta before ramadhan...n lg smggu lbh2 g2 nak sampai bln ramadhan...
lalalalalala~
n skrg maseh sempat lagi brcerita dlm blog ny..*eheh*...
lantak la kan...aq suka ape maen tulis2 cmni..hilang stress ckit2...
h0usemate seme da dlm mo0d wonderland...psl penat sgt la 2...yap!..sape ckp x penat 2 memang aq salute springggg la!....aq un penat bdn da ny...nk abehkan ayat luh..ps2 kemas buku...then...zzzzzz....

okeylah ye...buku aq bsepah ntah ke mana...psl tuannye ngh sibuk menaip kn tadi...s0,pakai ambik buku,kitab...tgk,taip then x brtutup tutup...then bkk buku laen pulak...haaa...memang bersepah amt la kan...
okeii...bubbye...see ya'...next page..haha

ahad;motivated 0urselves!

smlm;dr pagi sampai ptg...ad wt motivasi utk dak2 usim,spe2 nk g...sila g...tp sbnrnye dak tamhidi wajib g..tp itulah..cam bese,ad la, x smpai sekerat dua yg dtg mnjenguk muka.*eheh*
n yg mmbuatkn kami ase nk g even ari isnin ad quiz math sbb ad Prof Dr Muhaya...pnyalah smngt kt0rg g....upe2 nye...yg dr muhaya stat k0l 2 ptg after zohor...pg uh stat ngan imam muda hassan...
j0m2 kte check-it-out ape yg dye gtaw...

• Allah gne prkataa 'aku' lam Quran utk tnjukkn keesaan n bukti tauhid manakala prkataan 'kami',Allah gunekn utk tnjukkn kekuasaan...okey?..phm kn??
• yg ny..ada  s0rg abg seni0r..fr0m pusat perubatan UM..dy tnye psl surah ape ntah~x dnga sgt~..then imam muda hassan un jwb...Nabi Ibrahim bkn ragu2 ngn Allah..tp dsbbkn trlampau rse kasih nak brtemu ngn Allah dan gak utk tmbahkn keimanan dye.....
• 'org yg celik hatinya akn sntiasa mncari kbnaran'....sbgai cntoh,ad lar kn s0rg uh..non-muslim...dye da expl0re bnyak sgt tmpat kt dunia ny tp dye ms0k islam hnye slps dye mngkaji surah al-ikhlas 2 je....sbb hidayah uh milik Allah...ingat uh...

then lps  uh..lam kira2 k0l 11 pg,afer rehat 10 minit..ceramah fr0m Dr. Mohd Khairul Nizam Zainan Nazrin...yg ny..dye fr0m usim...lecterur ape ntah,x ingat..hehe...
hehe...bnyak gak mnde yg dye ckp...tp x j0t down...so mcm tatau nk tulis pe...xpe la..its okay...la baksa...

kte g0 thr0ugh kpd yg mmg kt0rg;aq,fatin,aina~tnggu dr awl pg...a talk fr0m Dr.Muhaya...
xyah nk buang mse...sbb es0k aq ad quiz bi0..hehe...trus j0m kte bce ape yg dye gtaw...
t0 be a go0d student..

• sesape yg ajar kwn ...dye akn ingat bnde uh 100%...s0,after kuliah..bleq umah ke ,dalm bas ke,dlm kete ke,tgh mkn ke..amek peluang utk ajar kwn ktew...
• belajar utk mmberi manfaat after lulus...bkn sbb nk tnjuk pandai kat u ke ape ke...tp bg benefit utk whole life...ok?
• life 4 ALLAH only!
• tujuan hid0p kte kt dunia yg amat sgt sekejap ny adlh utk mncari n mmdapat redha Allah.
• nk excellent exam...brsihkn hati   sbb ilmu 2 bersih,hnye prgi kpd 0rg yg bersih hatinye.
• sciense discover 'b0ut what Allah make it 2 be..
• ape sje yg mmberi ilmu...x kre dr sudut mne,akn mmberikan energy yg amat2 besaaa...
• kte sbnrnye ad mse utk segala-galanye...mase yg Allah bg sgt2 cukup...Allah tahu kprluan hambanya...hnye 0rg yg x reti brsyukur je mrasakn masa tk cukup.
• kte bleh utk control semenye;ape yg kuar dr mulut;ape yg kte baca;ape yg kte mkn...nk ckp everyth lar...s0,contr0l!
• sesape yg ase dirinya sntiasa betul,org laen salah 0r what so ever.....peratus sakit jntung lbh cepat ialah 30%...so,tayah nk ase diri uh bajet bg0s sgt...
• jgn trlampau brpersatuan smpai pljrn entah ke mnana or else(d0ing something bkn sbb Allah or keberkatan tp lbh kpd nk tnjuk diri 2 hebad)..sbb nnti kte gak yg akn strieving smpai ke sudah.
• something that you hold in your mind,you can do it...its seri0us!
• pemikiran mmpengaruhi tubuh bdan
• kte akn menarik gelombang yg sama ngn kte fikir
• fikir positif mnghasilkn emosi positif mnerbitkn vibration positif menarik kpd tndakan positif n lastly akn mnghasilkn hasil yg POSITIF!
• kte hnye akn dpt ape yg kte bg kt 0rg laen;believe it!
• hid0p ny;kte akan dpat ape yg kte jangkakan...bkn ape yg kte nak..s0,sntiasalah mnjangkakan prkara yg baaik brsekali ngn usaha yg baik n mantap...lau fikir je...tp usaha zer0....peratusnye brkuranglah kn??
• dunia di dalam mmpengaruhi dunia di luar...fhm x?...dye cm ape yg kte fikir,itu yg trjadi...lbh kurangla...'all is well,insyaAllah'
• 75% pnyakit dsbbkn minda yg negatif...maka,st0p thinking b0ot something yg kte x nak n kte x ske..

huuuu.......2 je la kot yg aq leyh gtaw...aq x reti sgt nk bgtaw bleq kt 0rg laen...but,after all sharing is n0t a bad thing 2 do...lau nk ase lbh brsemangat...g0 and listen by y0urself...x rugi...believe me..hehe...mcm gaya aq mandat besa je nak suh 0rg g situ g sini,dnga itu dnga ini...kn?kn?

seyesly...now,i'm trying 2 think p0sitively...bout everything that happen...happen on me or someone else...btw..i just wanna conclude that....Allah had make it p0sitively...thr0ugh and thr0ugh...n it just us,on h0w 2 hold it....with smile 0r anger...okay kwn2 ku yg amt sgt aku kasihi sekalian?...we can change the w0rld when we change 0ur mind....

xpelah..es0k kuiz bio...sec0nd kuiz...wish me luck...maan najah...always...:)

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trlalu bnyak bnde yg prlu d'fikir..trlalu bnyk mnde yg acr0ss ms0k lam kpale 0tak tnpa bg signal..trlalu bnyk burung2 maen aci kejar atas kpale..brpusing pusing..
nk mengeluh...dh trlalu selalu wt,da jd h0bi...even sbnrnye mnde 2 x baek lar kn ...
maka,jngan penah ik0t perangai aq yg satu nim..*heh*
aq un tatau ape wrna mo0d aq skrg nim..black,maybe...white pink2...*perhaps*

aaaa...........actually its n0t half bad...~again~NOT-HALF-BAD...4 being u university 0r maybe i have 2 say it specificaly...being a USIM student..i'm pr0ud,of c0urse..but it just......arghhhh.....to0 many thing 2 d0,to many thing to say until i'm pause;d0ing nothim,lay 0n my bed,thinking 'b0ut whatever-my-mind-talk.

*uhuh*
next week.quiz.again.
hail0ohhh...mmg cmni eh?..quiz,then get the marks,then quiz again,then get marks,then test..
0keh...every week ulang yg same..
key...tak...actually mnde2 cmni bg0s sbnrnye...didik kte utk study...jgn mls2...siap bg signal ninonino said
'u are n0t sch0ol student anym0re..remember that u r university student..s0,act as what u are!"
yes...i kn0w it...abs0lutely.
0keh.skrg j0m2 teman aq...kte wat same2...setting niat bleq...bljr sbb ape...n f0r who...
lau x..smpai ke sudah bl0g ny just dnga luahan hati tiga rasa aq yg xde pekdah langsung2!
kan kan kan??
skrg....smile~
make 0ur life as it is a yummy ch0c cream cake n we r really enj0y it!

*saya mahu bernafas*

hurm..........

Assalamualaikum......

s0,h0w ur life guys??
big giga happier than b4?
or just same?
wake up fren!...make a change...make all entire 0f diz w0rld pr0ud of u...can eh?
heee~~
nothim else that i wanna talk 0r write 0r what-so-ever.
juz....t0day;2nd 0f july.
my h0usemate-i mean 0ur h0usemate da nk pnda...dye dpt mara..medic..
may Allah bless her life...alwaysss....
n td call makkk!!...okeh..pmbetulan~aq mcj mak suh call bleq...n mak call bleq..
hehe...bese la...university student..jimat itu perlu...haha....even satu sen...
0whhh~~p0ket kering skrg nim...;duit sifar;purse ringan;zmn diet c0ming!
s0,td ckp ngn mak...quiz math susa bataxx...n family kte nk dtg mnggu dpn k0t...
:) :) :)...hehehehehehe.....
n als0,ngee~aq nk bleq lps mid-term!
h0mesick amat2 da nim...................

n lastly,akhirnya,akhir kte........

We Are Just Human...but remember that wa are ABSOLUTELY PERFECT!
bc0z Allah never make mistake...
If u think u are lacking s0mething-somewhere....
please~make it as what Allah willed y0u to be...........

can eh??....mesti b0leyh lar!....:)

neW mEssaGe~

wiwiwiwink!!!

   1 new message fr0m sim1.....

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  Open message.....

Fr0m;
    kak l0ng.

Message;
    'Ya Allah,sentuhlah hati adikku ini selalu.Saat dia jauh dariMu,peluklah hatinya..
     Saat dia mencintai sesiapa lebih dariMu,peliharalah imannya selalu...
     Jadikan dia hamba yang bnyk berd0a..bristighfar dan banyak menangis dihadapanmu...
     agar dirinya sentiasa diberi kekuatan dan kesabaran dlm mnghadapi setiap sesuatu yg
     dtgnya dariMu...


*pejammatabukakmata*

tgk jam kt f0n....6.45 a.m...
kek0nfiusan brlaku...
since when my sist give all 0f this type 0f advice?

n still.....i am smiling!!

dunt w0rry...i am still da ol'Maryam....

U.S.I.M...it'us~

    ngeh~...ari jumaat..kuar kuliah awal..n there's we are....snapping!
     uik lha....dh gaya hepi melampauan....b0net kete kak teen ktew!!

haha...gaya cm jln entah kemane...pdhl skitar nilai 2 je punnn...muke xcited ye kngkawanku...haha

beli burger dpn kknc 2 pun nk brgamba sakan...smbl2 bce paper smbl2 ngenat bdak c0mel jual burger uh...he.he.he

heeeewwwwwww~~dpn t0ng sampah pun jd lar nk p0sing!....nasi arab2!

0ke...h0usemate2 ku yg sakan,mreka2 yg ske p0sing,mereka2 yg ske brjln~giant tmpt wajib tiap2 mggu d0e~*ngeh*n x lpe mrek2 yg sntiasa brfikir utk brjimat...hebat x?...kt0rg mkn share tiap2 hari...kt0rg ad..k0 adew??...*angkat kening*...hehe....
key lar....ujan ala2 nk turun tamau turun uh..sbl0m turun..aq ch0w luh...angkat baju!...bubbaiii~