free.

this is not about how free i feel right now..

or not also because of the free thing that i gotta have in a month or else.

also not because we are living in this free country that we are able to do everything.

absolutely not.

oke,seriously talk.

my feeling mix up.

my feeling MENG-kerabukan otak.

my feeling make me feel bad.

it just..i wanna feel free..................

oke...because of this day...i already list up how is me in my mind before i touch this lappy n open up my blog to write it all over.

1) over-confident  kills me.

no matter how i feel that thing is so much good...at the end,things going up not as much as my otak talk.

2) two thing in one time make a worse environment .

going to do or to feel two different path in a moment is such a weird thing to do...weird?...that is.

3) past is past...future is unexpected.

past teach us?..that right but it doesnt matter at all for your future...errr...for me only...maybe.

4) seeing others just scare us.

seeing how bad they are,how good they are...all of these are just prevent us to try other thing.

life getting more complicated from day to day.

ya...to prove that we can do thing that we never do,to sacrifie ourself,to satisfied everyone,to grow up self-confidence,to touch people conscience.

i'm trying.

seriously.

frankly.

uhuk...pray for me.

n this is what i do when my feeling of bad,suprise,happy roll into one =)

both are picture of my cn_I geng.

yg nie...USIM-ians...sya punye housemate..6 org satu rumah :).

E-1-4

yg nie pulak....my tuto-mate!

tutorial 10..

love you all.

S.A.L.A.M =)

Asslamualaikum w.b.t

hari ini hari sabtu 

saye nk pergi umah wan saye

ny bkn saya yg tulis.

my adik.

mohamad yusuf.

ngeh~~~

kita BERnasib baik.

hai.

hari minggu yg seperti biasa.

just...the reality is i wanna write 'bout one of my friends.

kisah yg bagi aq sgt sedih.

kenapa?

betul lar org kata kita mmg x leyh nk expect life org laen mcm mne.

mmg kalau kita tgk apearance je...she love to smile,tension when it comes to assignment,feel happy when class had been cancelled,n etc that we always do.

tapi rupa-rupanya...behind all those yg bagi kita biasa tue...

kalau kita tahu kisah yg sebenar...dye seorang yg sgt tabah.

macam nie...

ade lar sehari tue...dpt berita..

ayah dye meninggal..waktu tu kitorang cuti sem.

oke....time tue rase cam biasa..*erk,jahat kan aq?*

yela..betul lha..sedekah al-fatihah then dah..stop smpai situ tanpa ade rase utk tahu ape2 yg laen.

lepas dlm 2 minggu macam tue,my roomate..#fatin#.dye cakap cmny...

ko tau tak pasal izni?

aq pun tanye lar kenape?

tahu tak ape fatin cakap?

she told me a story.

story that i never expect to hear.

rupa-rupanye balik cuti sem tue....hari-hari dye ulang alik dari rumah ke hospital.

waktu kitorang duk kt umah,rilex2 cam tue...dye dngn sgt tabah mnjaga ayah dye yg dah strok.terlantar je kat ats katil.

n yg paling buat hati runtun...izni punya mak dah meninggal setahun yg lepas.

penyakit yg same ng ayah dye tp mungkin lebih teruk sbb arwah mak dye koma.

tue pun dye tahu time2 nak akhir sbb kalau bole ayah dye x nak bgtaw.

sebabnye...time tue one month before spm...kre mcm ayh dye x nak concentration dye trganggu..

dah 2 mggu mak dye koma,baru dye tahu...tue pun sbb something yg x bole elak.

n ade sekali tue aq tanye dye.

"ermm....sekarang ny izni duk ngn sape?"

then...dye mcm pause...dlm 1 minit..

lps tue dye senyum n says "tak tahu lagi...adik ade yg tinggal ng opah..jage opah"

ya Allah...time tue aq rase cm telan pasir je...nk nanges.

perasan x ayat dye...mksudnye...bkn semua adik dye tggl ngn opah,mungkin duk kat hostel ke ape...mungkin jgk ngn org laen..n adik yg tggl ngn opah...bkn diorang yg dijaga...tp diorang yg jage opah...

utk pengetahuan...dye anak second...abg dye umur 20...sekarang kt maktab.

adik yg paling bongsu umur 7 tahun weii....sedih sgt.

meaning...sekarang ny dyorang anak yatim piatu.
abang dye jd ayah.

izni jdi mak.

utk adik2 dyorang......

n this story reminds me how much i have to be grateful.

n kisah ny bkn berlaku pada org yg aq x kenal.

tp yg sgt dekat..yg bagi sape2 yg tgk dye xkan tahu yg dye ade history yg mcm tue.

dan sebenarnye ramai lagi yg Allah uji....sgt menguji ujian yg Allah bg kt mereka2.

tp diorang tabah n kalau boleh x nak sesape tahu yg diorang sedih.

maka,bersyukurlah kita semua sbb hanya diuji dngn ujian yg x seberapa.

ingatlah pada orang yg lebih bnyak ujiannye.

mungkin itu akan mengajar kita utk lebih tabah.

insyaAllah.

piZZa??

hewhew...
nak mkn piza?

tp mls pegi pizza hut or domino?

jom2 kita tengok resepi piza nih...

haha...poyo.

gaya mcm nk buat iklan ape jew..

okeh.

check it out!

bahan2 doh :

~tepung gandum..

      sukatan dye ikut besa mne piza yg kita nak buat...oke?

~satu sudu besa yis...mauripan pun oke...yg senang nk jumpa kt pasaraya uh.

~satu sudu minyak sayuran....aq biasa guna minyak jagung.

~air....sukatan dye agak2 jew...mula2 ltk lar cikit2 dulu.

~satu sudu kecil garam.

~satu sudu gula kisar.

bahan2 topping :

~erm...sebenarnye topping ny ikut kesukaan kitew je.
kalau nak wat seafood...korang masakkanlah dulu udang or sotong tue dgn sos tomato
n sos cili...yg ny paling simple.
nak letak sosej ayam pun oke.

nak lagi best,letak lar mozarella cheese ke ape..

n kalau aq,,aq suka letak lada benggala. hehe

senang cakap mmg ikut suka je..

cara-cara buat : (yg ny penting )
1) rendam yis dan garam dlm satu mangkuk n biar sebati....tunggu 5 minit.

2) masuk tepung gandum dlm bekas utk uli

3) masuk campuran yis dan garam tadi sekali ngan tepung.

4) masuk minyak n gaul guna tangan...
    make sure korang  gaulkan tue lama sikit nak bg tekstur dye lembut.

5) kalau kering sgt,tmbah air..
    kalau melekit,tambah lagi tepung.

6) bila dah sebati amek kain lembap n tutup doh tadi,then jemur kejap kat cahaya matahari dalam       

    15 minit.(kalau x nak jemur,tunggu sampai 1 jam dlm keadaan dibalut ngn kain lembap)

7) sapukan minyak ats loyang n letak doh ats loyang..tekan2  sikit doh nk bagi keluar angin..
     tp jngn tekan kuat sgt.

8)  then,bole lar diletakkan topping ikut suka..
     bakar pada suhu 180 darjah celcius selama 15 minit...make sure oven panas dulu :)

oke...done!

dah bole makan piza!
selamat mencuba..yep.